Life happens: Beware! Hormonal woman on the loose
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Confession - I haven't been a teenager in approximately (sound of a muffled number due to a hand over the mouth) years. And yet, for the past three weeks, I remember exactly what it was like to be a teenager.
Apparently, my hormones are currently on a cocktail of meth, bath salts and NyQuil. The same concoction they were chugging when I was 14.
And 3/4 of my 16th year.
And OK, yeah, some of 17, too.
Possibly also 22.
And for a brief period when I was 27. And 30.
But I digress.
Now, for you fellas reading this, I realize as soon as women mention anything about the H-word, you zone out and/or start stockpiling weapons for your own safety (as well you should). Hormones are simply a fancy doctor term for "Holy crap, I might die at the hands of this person who used to resemble my girlfriend/wife/friend with benefits." But stick with me here, just a little bit longer - at the very least for the benefit of your own safety.
As wacka-a-doo cuckoo crazy puffs as I am right now, I can officially say that this time there is a legit reason (other than "He left the seat up again ... Aprill smash!") About four weeks ago, I had a miscarriage, which was devastating and which I'm still dealing with and which I wrote about in my last column.
But one side effect of this horrific event I didn't expect is that when your body goes from being pregnant to suddenly not being pregnant, it also suddenly decides to go on a hormonal bender. Meaning I'm less of an actual person and more just a bag of skin and bones that is carrying around wayward hormones that have a gigantic chip on their shoulder.
And which also means that anyone in my path is a potential victim of Hurricane Hormone. For example:
My dog - who has been yelled at thus far for breathing, for shedding, for pooping too much, for looking at me too long and for that weird, irritating noise he makes when he's licking his paws.
My husband - who tried unsuccessfully to console me after I broke down crying when I saw a mouse dying from the poison the exterminator put around our house and trying unsuccessfully again when I sobbed uncontrollably at a deodorant commercial and an episode of "Teen Mom 2" and at a Triscuit that I thought looked like my recently deceased grandma.
My medical bill - which after I found out it cost me $300 to find out that I had indeed had a miscarriage was crinkled up, thrown against the wall and then stomped on. It would have also been set on fire, but my husband (rather wisely) hid any and all potential weapons in the house, including lighters and matches.
And just like when I was a teenager, I hate my body with a passion that only a white girl with First World Problems can. I have inappropriate responses to mundane inquiries ("Hey sweetie, how much was our electricity bill this month?" "Gaaahhh, what do you want from me!?! I'm only human. Sorry I have to keep my lousy phone charged. Why does everyone hate me!")
I alternate between being wildly insecure and thinking everyone besides me is an idiot. And, instead of being jealous of the prom queen, I am now jealous of all the women I encounter who are pregnant and/or have babies and so make up horrible gossip about them in my head ("I bet her stupid baby will grow up to live at home until he's 41. Ha! Serves her right.")
My only solace is that this will all pass soon, and I can go back to normal. Which means instead of being a crazy, hormonal 31-year-old teenager, I'll be just a plain, old, normal, crazy, hormonal 31-year-old woman.
But since I'm not sure when that will be, I bought helmets for both my husband and my dog.
And the mailman.
Just to be on the safe side.
Aprill Brandon is a columnist for the Advocate. Her column runs every two weeks in the Your Life section. Comment on this story at VictoriaAdvocate.com.