Hello Everyone!! I hope this finds you enjoying your summer, and I hope that you are all trying to stay cool!!!
As for me, I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about how my life has turned out, I never thought it could ever be like this. They always say that we will never be given more than we can handle, but man the past couple of years I felt like I was drowning, like I could never keep my head above the water and just deal with everything that was going on with me.
Back in 2001. I got married, and things were good for a while, but then they started to go down hill, it was like a snowball effect and no matter, what I did, it was never good enough. I tried my best, and did everything i could to try and salvage what I could, but it was over, and I knew it would never be the same so we divorced.
I don't think that my MS helped matters anyways, I mean who wants to be stuck with someone who may not be able to see or walk from day to day? It put a big strain on everything!!
Life does have a funny way of working out, when I was going through my divorce a very near and dear friend contacted me, and I told him about what was going on with me, and he told me what was going on with him. We connected that day, and continued to talk through everything. Well, I had a visit to California where he lived to go visit and something happened and I couldn't fly home so he drove me the 1500 miles back home to Victoria. He asked if he could stay a couple of days I said sure, well, a couple of days turned, into a couple of weeks, and months and two years later. We tied the knot!!
I believe that he was there for a reason, to call in that moment that I needed him. I feel like I can finally be myself, I am coming back from the brink!! No longer holding on to things that hold me back, past relationships, the MS, the things that hurt me. I now have a more positive outlook on life. I feel the old me coming back, the one who can sing and dance when I can. I'm just so happy I am no longer a prisoner, I feel better about myself both physically and mentally.
When you have someone in your corner helping you fight the worlds battles and who can help you come back from the brink of all that held you down. It's a great feeling!! I hope that one day you can feel that. I still feel the symptoms of the MS and I still get tired, but this time it's different because I really don't feel the pain anymore because I have someone who truly loves me for me, with the MS and everything else I came with and I couldn't be happier.
I hope you have at least one person you can trust to bring you back from the brink. My life used to be a mess, but now I have the most positive outlook that I have had in a long time, and I wish you all nothing but the peace and happines I have. :)
Until next time Victoria... keep smiling!
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