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    The many faces of Dad

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    When I help my Dad to bed each night, I kiss him goodnight, turn the light off and I remind him that we will have "fresh, hot coffee in the morning." As I close his door I say a prayer ...

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    Exits

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    The exit for Winnie, Texas is hard to miss while driving on IH-10 toward Beaumont. For five and a half months I didn't even want to consider taking that exit as I drove back and forth from Victoria to Vidor ...

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    These are the good old days...

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    I have to remind myself that this Alzheimer's disease Dad has will not get better. I think I delude myself into thinking with the right diet, medication and exercise - and a whole lot of healthy laughter - he will ...

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    Blizzards and swings

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    I'm beginning to think that Alzheimer's symptoms are selective. I mean, Dad can't remember what day it is or even that he lives in Victoria now. But today, promptly at 5 p.m., he told me, "Well, this is about the ...

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    Duck huntin'

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    My Dad sometimes speaks in what I like to call, "Duckisms". Oh, it's nothing new and it has nothing to do with Alzheimer's. He's been doing it for years. As long as I can remember it was, "Daddy, where you ...

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    I'm no saint

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    I have a confession to make; I told my mother before she died that there was no way I could watch my dad if she were to pass away. I told her I couldn't handle the responsibility of taking care ...

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    The depression

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    I miss my mom. She was a good woman and a good friend. Sometimes the sorrow just wells up inside me and I feel this desperate need...for what? I'm thinking that only a hug from Mom could make it better. ...

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    Changing of the guard

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    I'm nervous. It's almost the same feeling I had when one of my kids was starting school for the first time. Will he have fun? Will he miss me? Will they be nice to him? Dad will be left with ...

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    Someone to watch over me...

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    My Dad has been to the moon and back three times. And it's very cold in space. At least that's what he told the hospice volunteer who came to visit last Friday. Once I picked my jaw off the floor ...

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    Going with the flow

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    I have to keep reminding myself that every day is going to be different. Life is like that--it's constantly changing. Some days are better than others. Today was a good day. Oh, it started out a little strange when my ...

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    It's all in the attitude

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    If I greet my Dad with a smile, a positive attitude and (of course) a fresh cup of coffee each morning, he tends to be in a much better mood all day. Who wouldn't, right? I only mention this because ...

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    Father Goose

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    After running some errands Dad and I went to Riverside park. We sat on the same bench we were on last time we were there. It was cool under the trees and a nice breeze was blowing. I had a ...

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    My old life

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    My life is not the same. Big changes are happening here and there's a part of me that wants to turn and run from the new responsibilities. Last night my Dad woke up at 2:30 a.m. and got dressed to ...

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    Road trip to Rockport

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    Saturday we drove to Rockport. Beautiful day! My Dad sat in the front seat with Robert and enjoyed looking at the scenery along the way. He was very impressed with yards and fields that were freshly mown and commented often ...

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    Pains, trains and automobiles

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    I took my dad to Sears today to get some new pants. His old pants were a 38" waist and without a belt to hold them up they would have dropped to the floor. He has a 34" waist these ...

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    Drive time

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    I'm seeing a pattern with my Dad. He's fairly content most of the day but around 6 p.m. he starts getting antsy about leaving. He wants to pack his things and get on the road. He even starts asking about ...

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    In search of daycare

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    In an effort to find someplace for my Dad to stay while I work each day I took him to visit a couple of adult daycare facilities. Along the way to the first one Daddy was reading out loud some ...

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    Caring for my Dad

    By juliezavala in My Turn

    My Dad has come to live with me and my husband, Robert. Daddy has Alzheimer's that is fairly advanced. Despite his loss of memory he is a sweet and funny man who likes to tease and joke. When he gets ...