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Hanging in there...
By juliezavala in My Turn
March 7, 2011

We're home now. Hospice ordered a hospital bed for Daddy and they delivered it this afternoon. I had to stop and think about the best place to put it. My first thought was to put it in the living room so daddy could watch tv and listen to music with us. But then I thought maybe his bedroom would be better so he could rest in a quieter place. I wrestled with the decision until the guy came to deliver the bed and I had to make a choice. I chose Dad's room. I figured that he could always sit in his comfortable chair in the living room; until he couldn't anymore. And then we could move his bed into the living room so I could keep an eye on him.

Last night I broke down and cried while I was hugging daddy goodnight. And this sweet Dad of mine hugged me back, patted me on the back and told me everything was going to be alright. That just made me cry harder. But while I was crying and telling him how much I loved him he had a moment of clarity and looked into my eyes and said, "I know I'm dying." Wrong words to say to a woman exhausted from too little sleep and too much worry! I started crying harder. My husband commanded me to go straight to bed whle he and my two brothers took care of daddy.

I did as I was told and went straight to bed. I woke up this morning and felt so much better. And then I read the comments that some of you posted on my last blog and I felt so blessed. Many thanks to everyone.

My daughter and sister-in-law are coming today to stay with us for a week and help us take care of Dad. I'm looking forward to their visit and their support.