not at Skillets anymore...haven been for like 2 or 3 months now! been lookin for a job...any job. Livin life the best i know how to. Some days are great, while other suck. But that's life for ya. Between the ups and downs i don't think i would want it any other way. Im content at this moment where i am at, i just stress over finding a job! but i love this quote..."the sun is new each day" isn't that the truth!? Everytime the sun comes up it's a new day. A new day to venture out and find new things in life, a new day to that puts the past a day further behind us, a new day to have our trust grow in someone. I used to be so negative like all the time, i can still be that way, i didnt trust anyone, never believed anyone and i hated myself for it. I am becoming more optimistic day by day. I am learning to let go, trust, believe. And it is through my best friends that help me grow day by day and allows me to open up and explore my artistic side. So, who cares if noone else likes what i do or me? It's my "art", my drawings. I am starting to not care what people think of me as much, like i said i have to take it day by day. Who cares if im not the "all american perfect woman thats 5 7 and 120 pounds" im 5 5 and 157...i may have a bit a of a tummy and i may be considered thick, but theres people out there like my family and friends who find me fine the way i am. and it should be that way for everyone. I am beautiful from the inside which makes me beautiful on the outside. In fact i like not being "perfect" now. i have flaws. Everyone does, i LOVE flaws on other people. I wanna see scars, sadness, heartbreak, anger, happiness, love, hate...I want to see it all. and besides what is the "perfect" standard for a human being? THERE ISNT ONE! i am trying to come back out of my shell, i will eventually, give me time. Ugh ok sorry forgive i just ramble sometimes.
The world is not perfect. and thats why i love it. It is sad when people cannot get along. As for me, i hate fights, confrontations and things like that, believe, there have been a couple of times where ive wanted to punch someone in the face, break a beer bottle over their head, but ive caught my self or a friend held me back and i quickly snap back to my quiet self. But that is human nature, and sometimes we can't help but want to do those things, even if a person would never kill a fly, someone that some people think would NEVER even THINK of things like that, it happens. Most of all i just wish people would get along. I am trying to get ride of all the negative in my life. Be positive, be happy...no matter what happens, things will work out if it was meant to be and it will work out all in time.
I know i may have confused some people with this whoever reads it , but i did cover a few things. sorry about that. i just had to i guess "vent".
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ok well im not bashin skinny women...i for one was a size 4 in high school due to the face i was bulimic and anorexic in school yes at the same time...i never ate around my friends i only ate around my parents and then went to the bathroom right after. i have a lot of friends hat are skinny. im just sayin the MEDIA has corrupted us. but thanks guys. :)
October 10, 2009 at 1:07 p.m.You're alright! I got a good kickstart to my morning with this.
October 9, 2009 at 7:09 a.m.I'd like to see some of your artwork. Post a pic when you get a chance.
Keep on being "You". That's always best and what most don't know is that it's always easiest.
Bravo!
This is a Blog that I am interested in reading, knowing I am not the only one out there feeling the same about "People". As I have grown up and realized people have frustrated me and called me postal at times throughout my younger years in life, I will remember there are others out there that feel the same way as I. I am a Real person with real opinions, and real feelings. Thanks for the blog...
October 8, 2009 at 7:08 p.m.Just as well as to not assume that just because a woman is Thick she needs to lose weight. Thick, Thin, their are fingers pointed on both ends...BUT, more on the thick end than thin. So, really there is not a lot of comparison. Just understanding! That's my view point!
October 8, 2009 at 6:39 p.m.just a note here. Not all women are skinny by choice. It's just as hard on women that are trying to GAIN weight, as it is on women who are trying to lose weight.
October 8, 2009 at 6:06 p.m.So guys, the next time you see a really thin woman, don't just assume it is her fault.
JohnnyHville - Thanks for supporting the thicker females. I myself have always been a little thick..not big just thick and at times I did feel self conscious because a lot of society makes one feel like they are nasty to have curves....anyway...THANKS ;)
October 8, 2009 at 5:44 p.m.I agree with Big J. Besides, most guys I know prefer "thick" girls with curves over bony twiggy types. Its slobs and peeps with no self respect or desire for self improvement that are turnoffs.
October 8, 2009 at 3:56 p.m.Well...don't feel left out of the "ALL AMERICAN" view of what a woman should be or what her SIZE should be. God made us all unique...and to each there own is the way I see it. Besides, how can we really trust what most of society says should be when MOST of society is corrupt and infected with distortions and lies beyond our wildest dreams. Stay strong, our creator made you a woman for a reason. Not because of what your SIZE,WEALTH, JOB, or TITLE "SHOULD" be.. but, because of how strong and important you are to this world as a WOMAN!
October 8, 2009 at 12:05 p.m.I hear you.
On the wall at the goose camp on the river by Tivoli hangs a sign I had painted years ago with a line from an old Bob Dylan song which reads,
"If you believe there's no price
for this sweet paradise
just remind me to show you the scars."
Soldier on darlin'...it will all work out.
It always does.
October 8, 2009 at 8:54 a.m.