So,I feel the need to express myself to the world that continues to reject the type of person that I am. With maybe the few that have accepted me.
I get it,Lolita Fashion is odd for a lot of you to understand,and A LOT of you continue to associate it with the book written by Vladimir Nabokov,the book and the Fashion are two diffrent things. Even though it is said that we are trying to keep being children,this does make it seem so...doesn't it? We are not trying to fulfill some old man's fantasy,because that's just gross. Even though it was thanks to some old man that my friend and I wound up on the paper,even still. I've just come to terms,that where I live,is full of conservative people,where anything that is out of the ordinary is not accepted. The only time it really hurts,is when your Mother has "finally decided to come up with the courage" to tell you that she cannot be seen with you in public when you wear Lolita. I suppose I understand,considering that every time I dress like this,I get stared at. I have come to accept this,even though she hasn't. Stares no longer make me uncomfortable,as I've become accostumed to them...living in this world.
Before,I used to dress more extreme. More gothic,but I am now trying to dress more elegant,more Lolita. I think my Gothic attire would get more stares than this does...heh. Before,I always thought that my Mother had supported who I am,and accepted me. Now with this,I'm completly shocked. I really don't know how to take it,and just don't feel like I can live in this house any longer...and need to get out as soon as I am able.
I am diffrent,and I enjoy it. I don't like to be like others,even though Lolita is a community in itself,but at the same time we are not all the same. I just want you to understand,there is nothing wrong with me. There is nothing wrong with being diffrent from others. I'm not harming anyone,I'm not a criminal. I enjoy my life as a Lolita,and there is nothing that is going to change that. Granted,I love my Mother to death,but I will not change for her,because I live my life the way I want,so I can be happy.
When you all look at me,see me walking around the mall,HEB or Wal-Mart,go ahead and stare. Shoot,take a picture if you want to,I'll pose for you! I really don't care. If it my fashion bothers you,that's just too bad because I'm going to keep being this way until the day that I die. Go ahead and critisize me because I am diffrent. I've been diffrent since I was a child,and nothing has changed. I can take it. I have accepted,than you cannot accept me.
I am grateful for the positive comments we got long ago on the article,the negative ones of course,not so much. Though,you have to take the good with the bad,that's just the way it is.
I just never expected my Mom to turn her back on me.
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I would much rather see you in public than some of the crap other teenagers and young 20 somethings wear. Your cute and fun. You would fit in Tokyos scene very well. Wait, nevermind then you would look like all of the young girls there. :) I will say I have to agree with Legion. In 20 years your style may change. Maybe not drastically, but in some form. Hold your hat Rebecca (GASP) I agree with you too. She is cuter than the whole grunge thing we lived through. Madonna-awesome...Courtney Love...What were we thinking? Keep trucking, remember to those of us who were not born and raised here, your style is not shocking at all. Take care.
April 14, 2010 at 10:58 p.m.I don't think your clothes are very outlandish. We used to dress like that in the early nineties when the whole Riot GRRL trashy baby doll look was cool in the Grunge movement. Also, I don't think most people want to be like others, or at least they don't think they do. Its too bad your Mom feels the way she does, because I don't see where the way you dress is all that different I see girls all the time in such attire.... I noticed on Etsy there are many handmade clothes that fit your style, have you checked there? If Victorian Lolita weren't that popular, it wouldn't have its own category. There are lots of people around here who like those types of pieces. Anyway, I know it seems like a big deal now, but trust me the older you get you will realize no one really cares how you are dressed, they are worried about their own problems.
April 14, 2010 at 9:48 p.m.You are 23, a babe. You have the right to look like a babe when you go out. This outfit looks good on you. You definitely make a statement and it looks ok to me. I recently visited my sister. She had the Lolita look going on and she looked adorable. She also looked 16 again. Man, I was jealous. She's 54. I had to do a double take when I first saw her. It definitely worked for her. I am of the Peter Max mini skirt era. I wouldn't be caught dead in that look now, but the flapper craze in Europe really has my attention. I love to Charleston.
November 16, 2009 at 6:50 a.m.@PatientEarth That's what I don't get either. I used to not be so covered up back then,so why she's getting after me for this now,I don't understand. I'm actually 23 years old,and I work at Ventura's. It's uniform code there so no.
Thank you. This is what we're trying to get people to understand. I'm actually more Sweet Lolita,but I don't have anything in my closet to potray it yet,but I shall post something once I do! ^_^
@legion357 20 years from now,who knows? I know that there are people in thier 40's dressing like this right now,and they are beautiful. I hope I can keep this beauty at that age like they can.
@Rebecca Actually that character is from the Tenchi series. Ryo-ohki to be exact! If you haven't watched that anime you should,it's a really amazing one imo. Thank you for your compliment,I appreciate it. ^^
November 15, 2009 at 6:29 p.m.lol, ain't it?
November 15, 2009 at 5:34 p.m.The way you are standing there holding a bunny reminds me of that Japanese cartoon series "Fruits Basket" with all the little characters of the Zodiac who clung to Tohru. I think it's cute and it looks like you are having fun! Also reminds me of when Madonna first became popular - but more whimsical.
Legion, in 20 years we ALL will be dressing differently. =P
November 15, 2009 at 5:31 p.m.That's the way you feel now, and it's ok.
20 years from now, come back and see if you feel the same way.
November 15, 2009 at 4:34 p.m.