I miss running. I compare running to psychotherapy. I remember thinking during one of my sessions that if it weren’t for my evening treatments I would be clinically insane. I love that alternate state that is reached after ignoring all cries of “are we there yet?” from the body. Only after the messages from the physical are hushed can communing with the subconscious begin. Is that “Zen” or “Nirvana?” Fasting only faster?
Well, one leg injury and six years of snowballing emotions and shallow introspections later, I think I’m insane.
But, there is some good news for us all. Last night hubby and I hit the trail. I thought we were there for a romantic stroll when he asked, “Think you are ready to run?” I felt like a parakeet who had been given permission to leave the cage. I’m very competitive so if hubby is jogging I have to jog faster. I won’t stop until hubby stops. Eventually, I was covered in sweat, doubting the effectiveness of P90X -- this only after a few steps. How is it that I can get through an hour of Plyometrics but only jog for a few minutes before I am physically spent?
After my injury I did walk in the evenings, but the rewards weren't the same. Walking takes you out of yourself only as far as nature. Don’t get me wrong, I love to hear the cicadas and watch the setting sun, like Midas, touch and turn the landscape into gold, and smell what people are cooking for supper… A few of you were BBQing last night and one was playing Tejano music. I'm Czech so Tejano feels like home.
I want an escape that’s deeper; one that transcends time. Will I ever reach that sacred place again?
This morning when I woke up I could walk without pain. So, if I can have patience, there’s hope. My lack of patience is what caused my injury in the first place.
I look forward to being able to bring my everyday problems, stresses, and wounds to that invisible spacetime in the universe to be assured of how insignificant they really are.
I miss running.
I'm chasing running.
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Amen!
August 30, 2010 at 7:36 a.m.Such a nice topic for me.
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August 28, 2010 at 1:03 a.m.Can I get an "amen" on the Polka sounds like Tejano music statement?
August 22, 2010 at 6:49 p.m.V, but what if insanity is normalcy for me? Funny and I would actually enjoy drinking some beer in a plastic baby pool.
R, Hubby offered to take me and my bike to the trail with him but I told him, "Honestly, and here's the deal, I have a fear that I will fall off my bike as I am crossing the street and all the people in the cars will be laughing so hard they will accidentally run over me." (It all went down on Facebook)
He just left alone for the trail. He's easy to spot. Just look for the sexiest man on earth.
August 22, 2010 at 6:35 p.m.Try biking - it's about as good and not as hard on the knees, etc. Swimming is also good.
August 22, 2010 at 3:29 p.m.Rebecca,
I think clinically insane is = to clinically depressed, either way it is an altered state of something, LOL…
Jeff Foxworthy method to healing the clinically depressed for men is as fellows, buy a case or two of beer (top shelf) no cheap stuff, a carton of cigs non-filters, invite only two of four ex-wife’s over, oh lets not for get the tequila, you know how gals get when they drink that stuff, “they loooooose clothing,” last thing on the list another brand new Wal-Mart swimming pool, a pink one of course, after all it’s because you are depressed. This will be the most exciting evening of your adult life or the owner of the trailer park calls the law and they take you away in a straight jacket.
August 22, 2010 at 3:09 p.m.I should have typed, "alternate state" instead of "alternative state?" ::slaps forehead:: I should keep a post as a draft rather than proof it AFTER I post it. I lack the patience.
Jose, obviously, I haven't been doing much meditating. I have been obsessing, though. I guess that's the opposite?
Observer, yeah, running is where you deal with the tough stuff. Actually, you don't do it on purpose, it's an issue that is brought up and then you eventually see it in perspective or gain some understanding. It's close to meditation?
August 22, 2010 at 1:33 p.m.You may be onto something. Years ago, I had a friend who, faced with a decision he could not make, became badly depressed. He told me that he was a runner in high school and college and started running again. Within a month, the depression was gone and he found himself able to make a previously impossible decision. It definitely worked for him.
August 22, 2010 at 12:24 p.m.Your soul does indeed have wings. Stretch them slowly and with a little patience, you will achieve everything.
I have a weight machine I need to become one with. After that, walking, then jogging.
Do you meditate? I can tell you that it can work wonders for the mind and the body will usually follow the lead more easily.
August 22, 2010 at 12:11 p.m.