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It's Hard to Stomp Off When You Don't Have Feet.....
By victorianbybirth in sodomizing my vast imagination one blog at a time
June 9, 2009

And it's hard to drive home when you don't have a car. Greetings from El Paso!

When I left home Sunday, I told my husband I didn't mind being sent all over the country as long as I'm in my car. If I get pissy & feel the need to quit, or something comes up, I can always drive back home. Not so much when you fly. Little did I know I would be staring that dilemma straight in the face.

The company is changing & not necessarily for the better. My department is going through a major overhaul & the blind are in charge. I was instructed that I must find a week to spend in El Paso this month. After much shuffling around, I found a week, then was told it was too soon!?! After numerous e-mails of the frowned upon kind, angry texts & finally a few defeated phone calls, I hopped on a plane & am now in the middle of my tour. I am here to kill 2 birds with 1 stone, take care of the account & train a newly transferred employee.

I have been training quite a bit lately & it is exhausting work. We really don't have any set in stone procedures on what we do, so that adds to the frustration level. The guy I'm training had a cush job before & that has all changed now & I think today it finally sunk in.
Now,I am the first to admit that patience is not one of my personal virtues & I can be a bit of a ummm......I speak my mind freely at times when I probably shouldn't, but in this particular instance, I had that part of me tied up, gagged & locked in the closet. I am training him on the basic duties of the job, when all of a sudden, he looks at me & says "do you train everyone like this?" I am confused by his question so I ask "what do you mean"? He proceeds to accuse me of throwing something at him & yelling at him. I am astounded, as I hadn't said 2 words before he asked that question. I laughed & said "you don't know me very well at all....if I had yelled at you, not only you, but the whole building, would know." We then went outside to further discuss the issue. He accused me of having preconcieved notions about him, again with the yelling & throwing of unknown objects. I tried to talk him down with soothing tones, the whole while telling him I knew the change was stressful, etc. Needless to say, he crossed the line, I snapped & actually did yell at him, if for no other reason than to show him what it sounded like, & he walked off the job.

What I have left out, is I am being considered for a manager position, that I am unsure I even want at this point. But if someone is going to rain on my parade, it may as well be me. Now I have to tell my new boss, who I just met & has entrusted me to train the new people in our dept., what happened. I called him & explained the situation the best I could & he said he would talk to the guy & get back with me.

I resumed my work & after a fashion the anger subsided & then I started crying. I felt like a complete idiot but I couldn't help myself. All I wanted to do was climb into my car & drive home, but I couldn't, I'm stuck. It's the most helpless feeling knowing you are stuck someplace you don't want to be & in a situation that you cannot control.

After many hours my boss calls me back, says the guy is willing to come back tomorrow & even admitted he over reacted & that he is a tad sensitive right now (I would've never guessed). Though I appreciated the fact that he admitted overreacting (to say the least) the damage is done, IMO. My boss asked me to e-mail the guy about tomorrow & I said I would take care of it. I decided instead to call him, make peace & let him know how happy I am that he is willing to give it another shot, purely for selfish reasons as I don't want to have to come back for a long time, if ever. He was very nice on the phone, happy & relieved that I called & we agreed to start over fresh tomorrow. I called my boss back & let him know I took care of it & how & that it was pleasant & I thought everything would be fine.

Later this evening, I get another call from my other boss telling me he was glad things worked out cuz after I'm done making friends & influencing people here (HA)...I was to be off to Lubbock to be magnanamous there (he's hoping for tears there). I decided then & there that no matter how far Lubbock is from my home, I am driving!